okay i know what you all going to say. “wtf, i thought you stop talking to him?” well yes i did stop talking to him until i saw this cute pillow pet panda at the store and it reminded me of panda and i thought about him when i saw it. yes i really did delete his number from my phone but i never mention that i have him as my friend on my facebook and i still do have him as my friend. i never deleted him and the only reason is that i never really go on it so when i do go on it i don’t look for him because i haven’t thought of him until now when i grab the pillow panda. i just got to have it not for me but for him.
the reason why i grab it is that i wanted to give the pillow panda for his birthday gift. i know that is birthday is in april but i don’t know the exact date until i saw his info on fb and his birthday is next week. instead of giving his gift next week i decided to give it to him early because i know i won’t get to see him on his birthday. so i got his number from his fb and text him that i got something for him and wanted to drop it off. he agree to let him stop by and drop it off but can’t stay long because he’s been trying to go sleep early since he been sleep late when he was on his vaycay.
i didn’t really care because all i wanted to do is to drop it off and wanted to tell him something but after i gave him is gift, i got choked up. i couldn’t tell him what i wanted to say because he was too excited and happy to see the pillow panda. i didn’t want to ruin the moment.
i got up and stood at the foot of the door way and said my “good-bye”. he gave me a hi-five and i automatically gave him a hi-five. as our hand touches, he pulled me in for a hug and hug for a pretty long time until he pulled me back and place both of his hand on each side of my head and stare at me. i waited and stare back at him. right there, i know, he’s going in for a kiss me. so i kinda tilt my head back so he can kiss me. then he lean in for a kiss. he kissed me….. on the forehead.
i felt so stupid and embarrassed because i tilt my head back waiting for a kiss on the lips but instead he gave me a kiss on my forehead. i try to play it off by trying to kiss him back on the forehead but playful smacking and rubbing him in the head. but really i want to smack him in the head hard for playing with me.
he knows… he know that i like him. that’s what i wanted to tell him after the handed him his gift. i wanted to tell him that “i still like you even though i don’t mean anything to you. i just wish that could have take some time to get to know me like i got to know you. i hoped that you would like me like the way that i like you. like me as a friend or whatever but i know that never going to happen.”
i believe i got my answer because he post the picture of the gift i got him on facebook and tag me in it. and he said “a friend” got him an early birthday gift. so in his eyes and in feelings he can only see me as a friend and thats all i needed to know. now i can really move on. i’m actually happy. i feel happy because i finally know what i am to him.
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