remember the post i posted up with the panda picture? like how i want to tell him after the handed him his gift. i wanted to tell him that…
“i never got the chance to tell u when i gave u u’re gift because i got choked up. all i wanted to say is that the reason y i got u the gift is to show u that i care for u and that i still like u even tho i know that i don’t mean anything to u at all. i just wish that u could have took some time to get to know me more like i got to know u. i hoped that u would like me like the way i like u. u’re different from all the other guys that i met and that’s the reason y i like u. i know that any of those never going to happen because u never put in any effort like the way i did. sorry for wasting my time and ur time for reading this.”
well couple of days after i post that. i sent him that text. the reason was because it was out of upset (i was about to say anger but i wasn’t angry) and i was drunk.
i didn’t get the response back until the next morning….
panda - “it wasn’t a waste of time for me to read it. and i’m sorry i can’t return the feelings that you have for me. you are a good friend and i’m happy i have met you. your panda did not go in vain as i really do love it. and a friend gave it to me. i know i’m distant and detached but that’s just how i am. i didn’t want to hurt you so i just kept a little distance.”
“sorry. u didn’t hurt me. im the one that hurt myself because i put my guard down. i’m the one to blame for u to keep ur distance away. i should have never told u that i liked u in the first place. but u can go ahead and delete my contacts number if u want. just let me know so i can do the same. if not, i still won’t bother u anymore anyways. i just let u come around instead. and by then, my crush for u will be gone. it already felt like it’s gone already because now i know how u actually feels towards me.”
panda - “i don’t hate you if that’s what you think. and no i’m not deleting you.”
“i don’t hate you if that’s what you think. and no i’m not deleting you.no i don’t think that. lol. it’s just that most people feel weird out about situation like this and leave that person high and dry in the dark.
panda - “na. i won’t do that.”
“thanks for everything…. well not everything but u know wat i mean. lol thanks for listening and for understanding”
panda - “/bows. i’m sorry that i didn’t turn out how you wanted. but i’m still on your side.”
“that’s how life is. the things u’re hopping for never turn out the way you wanted.”
panda - “i know that all too well. believe me”
yeah i still have the text. lol. i haven’t clean out my phone. i was suppose to post it right after the panda pic but i got to damn lazy.
and the reason why i’m posting it now is because…. well i don’t know. maybe because i want y’all to know what really going on and why i’m happy now.
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