Everything was great. He took the time off for me for the first time ever. We spent the whole day in bed and it was perfect for me but the next day it went down hill. We had our first argument and it hurt me so bad that I just wanted to go home. But I chose not to. He made me feel like I'm a burden there. He made me feel like I'm wasting his time. But he said I wasn't. We let things go but why do I feel like it? Why do I feel so hurt?
Two weeks later when I'm back home, I got a text from him. I didn't expect this from him at all. I didn't expect to get hurt this early from him. He said he's engaged to this girl name Sang and that she's arriving down there the next day. I was so shocked. I didn't know it was coming.
He want me to go down there for him. He want me to drop everything up here just to be with him. And my answer was "I can't, not right now, I don't want to rush into a relationship". It had been 7 months and I'm still not ready. I couldn't give him what he want. So he moved on.
I've been played. He was talking to this girl behind my back while he was talking to me. If I know he was playing me I would have never went down there for him. I should have never put in times and effort for him but I did because I love him. And now my heart his broken. I'm Hurts.
He knew it would take me some time for me to move down there for him; to be in a relationship with him and I thought he would wait for me. But he didn't. He went behind my back and found someone that could be with him.
He schedule for her to come down two weeks after me. What fucked up shit is that? I told him, "you could have stop me, you could have told me. You make me waste my time going down there". And you what he said? He said that I need to stop being selfish. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? Me being selfish? He's the fucken one that is being selfish.
He knew I was going down there to visit him because I love him but then he already have some coming down for him, to be live with him, to love him, to marry him, to fuck him every night. Now who's the fucken one is selfish?!?!?!?! clearly its him. He need some there for him, he need someone by his side and clearly I can't give it to him.
Uh, I'm so mad and angry. Forget sad and depress. I'm hurt but its mad and angry hurt kind of way.
I feel so used and be fooled. I have never felt like this before. No one have never done this to me before.
We said our farewell and I love you to each other. He said he didn't want this to end up like this way. He said it was a wrong time for us. And I just went on and agree with him because I have nothing else to sat to him. He said don't blame and I said it was me to blame and he didn't agree with it. Basically it was our fault. He need some there for him and I want to take thing slow. But thank god that I didn't jump into it.
Sigh!!!! thats my stories.
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