Spent the night at Jay's ....

Friday came along and haven't heard from Charles. I didn't want to call him or text him. I didn't want to bother him. So when Jay text me, I decided to go see him.

Prior to that, I post on my Facebook saying "what to do tonight? What to do tonight?" To really see if Charles going to let me know if it's OK for me to come down to see him but he didn't say anything or text or call. Until 15 minutes before I got off work. He wrote "go to the movie". I didn't respond back because I didn't think of anything of that. But an hour before that I already told Jay that I'm going to hang out with him.

On the way to see Jay, Charles called. He ask why I didn't respond back to his message. I didn't know that he want a response from me. He was hoping that I would say 'with who' so he can say with him. He thought that i would still go down there to hang out with him but I didnt.

I felt bad because we did plan on seeing each other but he never gave me the OK for me to come down. So we planned to hangout this coming up Saturday because I will be off. Hope that nothing will come up with him or get in our way to hanging out.

I had a good night with Jay last night. We hung out and watch movie and cuddling. The thing that I crave the most. I slept over. It wasnt the first time I slept over. This time it felt kinda weird. Because I knew that Jay got a boyfriend. Yes, he got a boyfriend that live in Texas. He told me a week ago well be we being honest with each other on things.

They have this long distance and open relationship. I was stock at first but it didn't really bother me because I wasn't really looking for a relationship with him. I just like the cuddling and company he gave me.

Now last night it felt weird because I saw his boyfriend pictures on the dresser for the first time before we went to bed. Is it the right thing to do with this guy? To cuddle with him in bed? To play with him in bed? While he have a boyfriend in another state? I think so but I'm still hanging out with him and chat with him.

I told Charles about it. I didn't know why I told him but he still going to find out about it though my blog anyways. I want to be honest with Charles because he's my friend because I still like him.

Uh my life is complicated because I'm making it that way. Sigh.