people been talking about this guy that just pass away. he was born with a hole in his heart but never bother him til last week when he complain about stomach pains. had 50/50 chance of living then drop to 30 then 10. at 10 he started to progress then he had a stroke and passed.
he died at a very young age. i never really though of anything until my sister text me of what her friend text her. and both of them made me cry of what they said. because i was born with a hole in my heart.
the last checkup i did was 5 years ago and they say that i was okay. and at that time i was a little over weighted and was a little working out.
now, i lost like 15 pounds and i still workout but still feel over weight and i haven’t got a checkup ever since then. money are a little tight right now and my job don’t give health insurance so i have to wait out until i have money.
the other reason why i cried because a lot things start to run around in my head. like, i don’t want to die at a every young age. i don’t want to leave my family and friends. i haven’t explore the whole world. and most of all i haven’t experience love. and etc etc….
sighs.. i’m really stressing out now. i have to push myself harder at the gym (mostly cardio) and eat healthy - which i have been doing. but it don’t seen like i did and try hard enough.
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